1)So we have an offer on our house, yay?! I dont know how to feel about that because it will make the whole divorce finial.
2) I got my first speeding ticket thursday, now I have to figure out how to deal with it. Drivers Ed? I think yes.
3) I am also going to figure out when I can move into my own apartment, hopefully by mid July.
4) We found friday that stupid mcjerkface has a girlfriend, they're already exchanging "I love you"'s , that's nice huh? We found this by accident too.
5) I have no idea how to deal with stupid mcjerkface's infidelitly. Some might say that they were already separated and therefor it doesnt matter, but it does to me. Hooray for lies .
6) I think I'm getting sick : (
7) Megan got her engagement ring, I feel like the worst Maid of Honor ever.
8) I'm in a super funk of semi-sadness lately. Just randomly I realize how meaningless my life is and it is really depressing.
9) I realized that people at work think that I'm an alcoholic because of how much I joke about drinking.
10) I miss the lazy days of summer when I could sleep in till 10 and say in my PJs until mom came home.
11) I'm sad that the only people that I seem to be drawn to are either unavailable emotionally or relationship wise.
12) I have an unwise addiction to peanut butter m&m's
13) I think my love for childish things, like robots and comic books, are only because I wish to hang on to the youth the I squandered trying to grow up.
14) I have yet to figure out what I want to do with my life.
15) One of my favorite things to do is lay on my bed, listening to something soft and sweet, with a sleepy Quinn nuzzled next to me as I drift off to sleep.
16) I want to go swimming a lot this summer.
17) This list isn't really about changes at all, just my super random thoughts.
18) I miss Allie.
19) I realized the other morning that I have crows feet, I need to start taking care of my skin.
20) I lost a total of 29.8 lbs over our 3 month weight loss challenge, and I am very disappointed in myself for not trying harder and cheating so much.
21) I think some of the best times I've had is when there is no plan, and I'm with friends.
22) I would really like to read more, I've gotten out of it and it makes me sad.
23) I also want to write more, because I miss that.
24) I've meet some of the most interesting people in the last few year, some of them I wouldn't let around my children.
25) I've become super judgement when I'm jealous of someone.
26) I've realized that I'm one of the only people I know who isn't with someone, and I think that's because I don't allow myself to be wanted.
27) I miss Seattle, a lot.
28) I want a big change in my life, I just don't know what that is.
29) I just made a flower out of M&M's.
30) I'm at work and I've done nothing so far...for the 4th day in a row.
31) I really didn't think that I would have so many random thoughts to just jot down but I guess I do.
32) I'm really sick of people talking about celebrities, and I'm sick that I've become one of those people.
33) I'm still happy that I haven't found tanning and blond hair an acceptable look for myself.
34) I'm torn on weather or not I want more tattoos.
35) There is Cereal Bar in The Colony now and it is one of my favorite places.
36) Sometimes I tell people way to many things about myself, I need to stop that (as I write a blog).
37) I really like Jack Johnson, he comes on my Pandora radio a lot.
38) My relationship with my father has become my weekly scheduled time to be annoyed.
39) I really hope that I can figure out how to be happy 98% of the time.
1 comments:
First your life is not meaningless.. out of all of those comments "thoughts" that is the one you need to shake for you to find the happiness you desire, not only being happy, but finding "love" You know whats sad you have to figure it all out even when you are "in love" poor Brian gets so worn down when I am down on myself all the time. This thought came to me. Heveanly Father knows every sparrow, and my friend I think you are more important than a stinkin sparrow. He knows every sand, so take comfort knowing that someone loves you unconditionally. Not only that but He knows the sorrows and pains in your heart, He has been through them, that is what happened in Gethsemene (sp) He knows EVERYTHING you are going through, He knows your name. He knows your pain. Its amazing what that can do for you in a dark moment. The Jesus your dad claims to know, knows his infidelity and He is just. So just remember that. Megan lives so far away its hard to be a "good" maid of honor. but at least you got picked! be honored, and do whatever she asks! It will be great! I love ya!
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