Chaos Therory

I went with a friend last night to get a tattoo. Part of my really want to jump in there and get inked again with her, the other part of me want to savor the whole experience without getting it done. I went with option #2. I don't know quite what it is but part of me is starting to feel like if I got more tattoos, then I'd be that girl who was too tatted up for a normal guy, but not enough for someone who practically lives in tattoo shops. I dunno, it's like my nerdiness. I'm too nerdy for "normal" guys but not enough for nerdy guys, what is that?

You know what I say? Quinn and I are hoping a VW Micro bus and going to Florida to be beach bums. I just need to find a way to pay for dog food so he doesn't end up snacking on my hand.

On a completely different subject Amber and I went to dinner with my dad and it wasn't too shabby. A little weird towards the end but not too bad. Maybe this is a good road? I guess only time will tell.

I'm off! More adventures later.

Clownin' around for my 25th

I threw myself a circus birthday party! We had duck games, door prizes, and a photo booth.

Balloons! Thank you, http://colormekatie.blogspot.com/ for this wonderful idea.

A clown cake, made by my momma

Amber and I, being adorable.

The best picture of Amber and Matt, ever.

Photo boot fun with Amber, Megan and Austin

Photo booth fun with Megan, Kelsey and Amber

The conjoined Twins - one is a fire breather, one is an acrobat

First, Apartment!!!

Ok, so I only have two on here now because we had a dinner guest who was very demanding so I only go to upload two. Those two, however, are very cute if I do say so myself. So first!

The living room:

And Second, the bedroom!

I'll upload the kitchen and bathroom later.

Tooth Agony!

I have to get a tooth pulled. Well, pulled was my choice. It was pulled or a root canal and I don't have the money or stomach for that. Blah.

On the plus side I had a super awesome weekend. I took some flower pictures in Addison park. Here they are for you to enjoy!

And last but not least...everyone loves sidewalk chalk!

Birthday, Spring Cleaning, LIFE

So my birthday is tomorrow and I will be 25. I'm trying to be excited.

I want to do a spring cleaning though, of my house. There is a lot that still needs to be done and I need to be at home with something to do other than wanting to go out and spend money. So my goal for this week is to finally post pictures of my place and then list out from each room what I want to change or get rid of. I might need your suggestions.

This post isn't going to be very long since I spent a long weekend in the hospital with a friend and an even longer Saturday night with someone who never appreciates anything.

Kind of depressed

So I haven't uploaded the photos of my apartment yet but I will soon, maybe. We shall see.

My 25th birthday is coming up this month and I have mixed emotions about that. Part of me is excited, I get to throw a party and people will dress up and it'll be fun times. Another part of me really want to just shut down and push everyone away. It seems like whenever things finally start going in a direction where I can feel slightly normal and start trying to get over everything that's happened something little comes along and knocks me off my horse. I know I've always had issues with bottling up emotions, which might seem strange to people I know, but I keep so much in. I have so much that I don’t let out that when I do finally let it all go, it goes out in a massive blow out. I need to find a happy medium so I don’t have that problem, but I don’t know how.

So far, in my almost 25 years I can say these few things:
I graduated college.
I took a road trip with my sister from Texas to Seattle, then to San Fransisco, then to LA and then home.
I flew to Boston with my sister as a first real vacation away from the family.
I rescued my dog, and I love him to death.

I feel like I should have more on that list. More places, people, things I've done. I feel like I should have someone in my life who I could see myself with. I would like to be married some day, have kids, but I don’t know if that will ever happen. I was recently in touch with an old friend, one that I always had issues with but was still a friend, and instead of being an honest, adult person and just telling me that they had moved on and were fine with our current not talking states, I was told coffee and things should commence to then be ignored. It shouldn't’t matter, deep down I know that in the long run it doesn’t mater, but how many people do I have from my past that I loved who hate me now? Quite a few. I have never figured that out. I meet these people, I want to have a relationship and a I end up bending over backwards to be friends with them and make them happy. I'm always trying to make someone else happy. Then, when I can't take the stress anymore they freak out and leave and hate me, and make sure that I know how much I'm hated. Granted my life has been better since their departure but part of me can't help but want them to still like me, or at least, not be awkward if I see them in public. I suppose it is my fault, I try so hard to be what they want instead of being who I am. All things I need to work on.

I guess 25 is going to be a year of learning.

I'm kinda proud of my self

I clean my apartment (I'm still behind on my laundry) and made tacos / had people over for dinner. Because my apartment is so small I have no space for a table we put two boxes in the middle of the floor and used them as a table and had a picnic.





Mom is going to come over on Sunday and I'm going to make chili (or at least try) so wish me luck on that. I'll snap some pictures of my place this weekend so I can show you all what's going on with it.





Oh, I did have a small, blank wall that was facing my kitchen that I wasn't sure what to do with. When walking the dogs a few weeks ago I came across a large black picture frame that was missing the glass or any backing. Naturally, I took it home. This is the result of that project.

That's a dinosaur cake pan that I picked up at CCA (community christian action), a discounted charger from world market that I spray painted red, the small circles are coasters that say "book" and then have a picture of a worm, there's a song bird, a trophy wife, and a black sheep. They make me happy.

My next project is my every growing mountain of laundry and putting up my "art" wall. I'm excited about that.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

Mucho Love <3